If thou art merry, praise the Lord with singing, with music, with dancing, and with a prayer of praise and thanksgiving. If thou art sorrowful, call on the Lord thy God with supplication, that your souls may be joyful. D&C 136:28-29
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Remember When
Remember way back when -- when all I had to worry about was mushy trills? Those were the days.
I am sick that after all the months (and in the case of the Bach piece - years) of study, I choked on performance night. I was happier with the practice runs I'd had earlier that day. I just feel like I was fighting the organ. My articulation came across legato, and for no apparent reason I made really loud, obnoxious mistakes from panicking.
Perhaps this is one of the stages of performance. Because clearly I can look back a year ago and say this performance is way better than my last performance. But that bothers me too because I know that a year from now I will look back at this performance and think "wow, I am so much better now." Which brings me back to how embarrassing it is to be this limited now.
Anyway, the yogurt afterwards was great.
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...you made mistakes?
ReplyDeleteI listened to both of the videos and thoroughly enjoyed your beautiful music. If these are examples of "loud, obnoxious mistakes" then I can only hope to be as loud and obnoxious in my own performances!
ReplyDeleteYou know I can the difference. Anyway, my watercolor teacher say you get worse when you are going threw a 'growth' period.
ReplyDeleteI meant to say I can't tell the difference.
ReplyDeleteI agree with everyone else. I thought it was great. I can't listen to the back without my heart pounding. I played it for a recital,and just hearing it reminds me how terrified I was! I survived, and since I have no recording of the event, I can tell myself it must have been fine. Selective memory is a wonderful thing!
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